Last Friday I was getting my protrait done, at an after work lime and being into photography and passionate about protraiture. Being in that chair I started to smile and I decided I wanted to be captured as a happy man, and you know it took 30 mins for him to capture me.
It was certainly amasing after the time to see a protrait come alive from a blank sheet of paper.

His impression

It came alive as this bajan artiste Victor passing impression of me was captured on a sheet. It was exciting to stop and take a look at someone else's impression of me. He was trying to keep me smiling too, and I too wanted to keep happy and smiling. The steel pan in the background helped as they played the sweet Soca tunes. I am not sure of the name but my friend Ziggy was playing - David Walcott.

The Magic

The real magic though for me happened when I made the effort to keep my mind clear and forget mmy stresses and focus on the reasons to smile it was so easy, I was in a bit of a trance imagining I was who I want to be. I could smile cause I had what I wanted to have. No one was making me happy I was happy to be me, Corey Graham. And it was an amasing thing.

I was happy, for I was me because I could suddenly see I was me, enjoying a moment. Hopeful for the future. And you know why? I just decided to be happy!

Make a big effort to be a good decision maker and I made a decision to get a good protrait and found happiness is always really just a decision away.


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I just heard for the first time in a very concise and practical way,

If fear is too strong the genius is suppressed. Robert kiyoseki -author rich dad poor dad.

Why this Blog matters and why its so important in my life?
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Over the last few weeks I have honestly detected a new habit of myself having more self confidence as I had previously. And in dropping by a friend of mine he introduced to me a concept of self confidence and sureness.
Where a kung fu master opting not to challenge not to take up a challenge of 2 young 'upstarts' and choosing the option to crawl through their legs and not fight them. And after becoming the laughing stock of the society.

This had me thinking of this whole question of self doubt and self confidence.

And I have realised that by allowing fear the get the better of you, then self doubt and self confidence are weak and then so is your genius and talents.

Hmmm,
I take a step back and I can telll you. I am not perfect. 25 years old today, and if there is one thing that I have learnt that has made the most significant difference positive didfrence in my life it is this thought.

If fear is too strong the genius is suppressed. Robert kiyoseki - rich dad poor dad.

And now I ask myself what do I fear ?
The answer used to be YOU.
But today you are reading my Blog. So I no longer fear YOU and
the piercing eyes in my back.

Thank YOU for stopping to wish me my birthday.

Check out this video which captures the idea.

Your Truly
Corey Graham
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It's my 25th birthday and its the first time I am making a big deal about my birthday in 25 years. having a birthday that falls in the first week of school a new school usually meant that the freshness of new beginnings always seemed to take away a little steam.
And after school was over I made sure I kept the celebratioon small. And it was in that time that I had a revalation.

The Revalation

I spent a lot of my birthdays waiting for other people to take the initiative for making me feel great on my birthday. You know but I realised that even if they did I shouldn't be allowing my happiness on my moment of time to be totally dependant on those around me. And their perceptions of me. I had to be responsible for my happiness, and in turn those around you will have a better idea, of how they can do their small part to help the day become memorable.

What is the key thing that made in memorable?

Well for me it was a day to focus on myself, what I want?, what do I have? where am I going? Where have I been? What do I need? Who do I want to become?

I guess there is a lot about ourselves we tend to ignore and not notice. Like when we are in pain, or things are rough. We hate to sit and truly make an effort to make things better for ourselves.

What I did on my last few birthdays?

For the past few birthdays I sat down and focused on me. I did thing just because I wanted to do them, lol. I 'dressed up' in a shirt I liked to go to work.
Took some time to work on www.drenalinproductions.com
Hugged my mother
A few times I even called people that helped me thru rough patches and just said thanks.
And sometimes just did things I wanted to do but I feared. I didn't let dear rob me of having a good day.
I rejuvenated myself and truly enjoyed the day and lived some of my dreams in a small way.
Rid myself of some insecurities and fears.

I made myself important to me, and then others reinforced my important in their lifes. And I let persons know that they were important in my life.

All in all I found my birthdays to be s much more satisfying and joyful experience. And I have become a better person since I started do this....

The conclusion of a revalation
There was nothing fake, it was all genuine, authenic, enjoyable and most of all inspirational and enjoyable.
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Ecclesiates 3



1) To every thing there is a season, a time to every purpose under the heaven : .....



14).... I know that there is no good in them but for a man to rejoice and do good in his life.



I do no seek to tell you about your religion. But the above quote came from a bible and it certainly caused me to take a time to reflect and over the past months more than ever there are times for everything.



One of the more crippling underlying concepts in my life has been my refusal to appreciate the seasons and times in my life. My lack of performance in some basketball games for example was because I truly did not appreciate that it was GAME TIME, is NOT the time for going thru the paces and feeling out the plays. It was a time to be on point. To get the job done.



For many of us the season for preparation passes us by. Time to 'lie low' save some money and learn some new skills. And get ready to be out there when the harvest season rolls around.



And still there is time, short range, days and weeks. We know we set aside a time for exercising, for reading, for planning.

Maybe its weekly, or daily tasks you have listed to be done.

And its easy to fool ourselves that something is important. And we can shift our daily tasks, but you know what happens. We never get back to the new years resolution to exercise everyday at 5 PM.



Ask yourself right now what time is it? What is the season?



Ecclesiates 3

1) To every thing there is a season, a time to every purpose under the heaven : .....



So I will look at my list of things I want to do, and see which of them whose time has come.



Another thing we usually fail to appreciate is that if there is a time for everything, there is a time to change gears. Get out of the harvest season and back into spring season.



Learn to deal with the passage of time, on your Journey.



This is D'Journey.

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I would never forget one of my more confusing moments as a child. It was when my father explained the concept of right and wrong in the terms of war and international relations.

He said that, who ever wins a war is deemed to be right.



As a young boy, well young lad I looked at this comment in a way that was more understandable to me....so I imaginged 2 children fighting after school. Of course we all had those days where we would race to find out what happened and who was right. And then wait to bare witness to the teacher and await the punishment to be meated out. And in that forum it was not about who won. It was about who was "wrong".



So imagine myself as a little boy not understanding for the life of me why whoever won a war was right. Even if they invaded another weaker country they would have been right.



Wow, just the other day I remembered this and just thinking how much as an adult today you just have to be a winner. Self pity and seeking pity from others gets you nowhere. Its for you to step outside, and go for what you want. State what you want to. We don't always get what we want but when people have an idea what your dreams are they will help. They might make that right connection for you.



I just wanted to share that with you. Make love and not war.



One Love!

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Its pretty amasing how much you can rely on something!

Its been a while since I last wrote on this Blog and its pretty amasing to me. I have changed blackberries and I I find it a little bit harder to type of this one and so I have allowed it to impact my blogging' not that I forgot to Blog, but I allowed my mind to make it seem so much harder than it really is.

And right now it really is not that bad. We have to evolve with time. Speaking about that I have decided to make use of the 2 domains I have ...

Creativity

I am feeling very creative lately and like I need to spend at least some time out of my busy week to just be creative and put more energy towards my passions.

Drenalin for me is just an energy that allows myself and others to believe in their creativity and make it happen.

I have always envisioned many things with Drenalin and I haven't been able to hold firm to the core belief that started Drenalin.

Just a few weeks from my 25th birthday I think it fitting to spend a few moments daily just developing my gift to the world.
The response to this Blog has always been phenomenonal. And it has encouraged me that many of my thoughts and ideas with Drenalin will work as unconventional as they are.

Here is an acromyn that captures for me in its own way DRENALIN.

D'Radical Energetic Nature Activates Limitless Imaginative Nerves

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Almost 3 days have passed and I am now writing about Machel HD's performance in Barbados.
Hmmm where do I start? Let me try the beginning. After a good wait Mr Montano. At 3 am he came out with his 2007 hit Higher than High.
I have to be honest the crowd went crasy .... I talking about speakers at full blast and you can hear the crowd singing and everyone's hand in the air.
Yeah that's a tune that I know have picked up many people when they were having a challenging day. But the crowd response was electrifying.
I after that I was trying to guess his set. Guess which songs were next and I clearly didn't have a clue.
Including his short display of African dancing - just him having fun. Asking the crowd who were Africans and then dropping some classic Bob Marley, Buju and Beres.
By that time he brought back on the soca. Corey and Crew were running up and down. Lolol. Machel was clearly having fun and he said
I feel so good
I feel so good
I feel so ________ good.
(NB. Crowd filled in the blank space)

We watched as a lady jump on stage and Machel danced thing here Latin style.

We saw Zan And benjai coming out and doing their thing mashing up.

Of course the sexy Patrice was there too, performing her tunes.
Machel made note that their keyboardist is a Bajan and he is releasing a CD from Crop Over.
He said that HD family had to represent on Dwayne's album and also they had to be a part of the Crop Over in someway since they will have to be in Caribana and will miss kadooment day.
And with that Patrice and Machel sang their new release for Crop Over 2007.

Of course the grand finale was Jumbie the song that won Trinidad's Road March by the largest margin ever.
The crowd sang the 1st verse and chorus without help from Machel or the other performers.

And brought the curtain down on the show at almost 5 am.

Listening to the conversations as people left the fete. I could tell everyone was pleased with the performance. Machel in high definition (HD) with no huge special effects or lighting effects. Just his talent for entertaining. And they were pleased.
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We have all heard this before. But these days I am really realising that for a lot of things we want in your lifes it just requires stickin to it.
We all know those times when we are tired, upset and fustrated. Everything and anything can seem to piss you off. You go through the day and the break in your routine has you wondering when you will have time to find yourself back. No no not finding you ultimate purpose in life. You just don't feel yourself mainly because of son changes in your schedule or maybe a habit. You have. You just sum to get things back the way they were. But I am here trying to offer myself a new perspective. Yes I have been feeling a bit like this lately.
And I am gonna let you know how I am going to approach it before I do.
I am gonna make a decision to accept the changes that are happening in my life, and decide to act on those changes in a way that will cause me to get closer to where I want to go.
Why? Why not just slip back into the old routine. With no surprises. Well cause I don't want to fool myself.
You never go back to a punt in your life. I learned that in a brighter sun. Yes yes a Caribbean book set in Trinidad. I was just 16 when I hear this and it always pops up every now and again to remind me not to fool myself.

The other thing is that to have somethine he has never had a man must do something he has never done.

As so I want to embrace change and the future, so that I can have new experiences and do things I never did.

Corey Graham
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All the world's a stage and the men and women merely player... Wrote the most celebrated pen of them all. That was the pen of William Shaksphere.

I can remember this excerpt being significant when I wrote one of my first deep writings of significance. Captured in that poem were words bounded on a page but with a meanin not confined to a single time or space.
I wrote in short that its the time between the curtians fall and rise that truly will make you great. It is the time spent preparing your mind and body for your role in the play of life. For the dimlight is the time for a soldier to remove his armour to have it repaired. Even have it made better for what he has learnt in the last battle.
Dimlight is a time to seek a greater understanding and command over your role. To master your role.
For it is a time for the rally car drivers to dismantle their engines and seek to repair them.
In the dimlight its a time to gather fragments of ideas scattered along the shore. Those ideas that come forth from fustrations and disappointments of the last performance.
What is dimlight?
Was there ever a time when you had to lie low, when you had to "sacrifice" the luxuries? What a beautiful light the dimlight as you can cast a new perspective and create new realities.

In a moment the lights come on planned or unplanned the flick of a switch is your que a call to action to execute the plan or improvise.
Yes, to improvise for should it rain on your parade the best laid plan can come to nothing. Who you are and who you have become will be glaringly apparent. How you handle pressure of a surprise reaction from your audience. Its only your understanding that will settle your feet.
Wisdom to stick to the plan is also needed. For there is a moments in which all you will need to do is nail the plan.
For it was the man who is accredited as being the vital difference in Britian's triumpht in the second world war who said,
There comes a moment in everyone's life, a moment for which that person was born. That special opportunity, when he seizes it, will fulfill his mission-a mission for which he is uniquely suited. In that moment will be his finest hour. Winston Churchill.

I have to close this email by saying that this time in my life they are several things where the spotlight is on me, and I have to remember to act appropriately. I can't be acting like I am in the dimlight when the spotlight is on.
Also to keep myself it top shape so that I can perform well.

Just remember no more mic checks when the spotlight is on, sing and perform your way to the place you desire. Corey Graham
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Oh my my my,

I am coming to the simple realisation that I allow myself to think more of the problem, than a solution. I sit and think why something can't be done because it requires me to go out my comfort zone. And simply put I am scared of doing it.
Also when we are upset about a situation or circumstance that we are in out of bthe blue we seem to experience technical difficulties with every piece of equiptment we use, and there is always some wonderful excuse why a work around can't work.
We simple focus on the problem and get all emotional and upset. Then we place barriers between us and successs.
Tell me what barriers did u place on ur way in the last hmm 30 mins-What problem and barriers have you been thinking about ?

Is that a problem
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Wow, that's so easy to say, wow.

We all know our biggest fears come from expecting something bad, making the wrong turn and not finding your destination.

Hope u understanding what I mean!

Wow I have been watching and feeling good things coming my way over the past few days, and I find myself instead of feeling grateful, I seem to worry more about the next day.
Before I just expect goodness or that I will make good with the way things turn out, I find myself in this state of fear.
Yeah, this is a busy time in my life now and certainly the question of priorities are hitting me every day.
What do I do next, to get to where I want?
Wake up one day and tonnes more stuff that needs to be done pops up.

I know I need to flick the switch one, which is just going to bring a calm around me and bring all those tools I need to get the job done well to me. Already the things I need just seem to be falling in place. However I am not proactive enough as yet. I am getting there more but I really need to push myself up to the next level once again.

I have to power to be who I want to be, and I also have to power to stop myself for becoming who I want to become. Corey Graham
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