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Its been a while since I last wrote on this Blog and its pretty amasing to me. I have changed blackberries and I I find it a little bit harder to type of this one and so I have allowed it to impact my blogging' not that I forgot to Blog, but I allowed my mind to make it seem so much harder than it really is.

And right now it really is not that bad. We have to evolve with time. Speaking about that I have decided to make use of the 2 domains I have ...

Creativity

I am feeling very creative lately and like I need to spend at least some time out of my busy week to just be creative and put more energy towards my passions.

Drenalin for me is just an energy that allows myself and others to believe in their creativity and make it happen.

I have always envisioned many things with Drenalin and I haven't been able to hold firm to the core belief that started Drenalin.

Just a few weeks from my 25th birthday I think it fitting to spend a few moments daily just developing my gift to the world.
The response to this Blog has always been phenomenonal. And it has encouraged me that many of my thoughts and ideas with Drenalin will work as unconventional as they are.

Here is an acromyn that captures for me in its own way DRENALIN.

D'Radical Energetic Nature Activates Limitless Imaginative Nerves

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Almost 3 days have passed and I am now writing about Machel HD's performance in Barbados.
Hmmm where do I start? Let me try the beginning. After a good wait Mr Montano. At 3 am he came out with his 2007 hit Higher than High.
I have to be honest the crowd went crasy .... I talking about speakers at full blast and you can hear the crowd singing and everyone's hand in the air.
Yeah that's a tune that I know have picked up many people when they were having a challenging day. But the crowd response was electrifying.
I after that I was trying to guess his set. Guess which songs were next and I clearly didn't have a clue.
Including his short display of African dancing - just him having fun. Asking the crowd who were Africans and then dropping some classic Bob Marley, Buju and Beres.
By that time he brought back on the soca. Corey and Crew were running up and down. Lolol. Machel was clearly having fun and he said
I feel so good
I feel so good
I feel so ________ good.
(NB. Crowd filled in the blank space)

We watched as a lady jump on stage and Machel danced thing here Latin style.

We saw Zan And benjai coming out and doing their thing mashing up.

Of course the sexy Patrice was there too, performing her tunes.
Machel made note that their keyboardist is a Bajan and he is releasing a CD from Crop Over.
He said that HD family had to represent on Dwayne's album and also they had to be a part of the Crop Over in someway since they will have to be in Caribana and will miss kadooment day.
And with that Patrice and Machel sang their new release for Crop Over 2007.

Of course the grand finale was Jumbie the song that won Trinidad's Road March by the largest margin ever.
The crowd sang the 1st verse and chorus without help from Machel or the other performers.

And brought the curtain down on the show at almost 5 am.

Listening to the conversations as people left the fete. I could tell everyone was pleased with the performance. Machel in high definition (HD) with no huge special effects or lighting effects. Just his talent for entertaining. And they were pleased.
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We have all heard this before. But these days I am really realising that for a lot of things we want in your lifes it just requires stickin to it.
We all know those times when we are tired, upset and fustrated. Everything and anything can seem to piss you off. You go through the day and the break in your routine has you wondering when you will have time to find yourself back. No no not finding you ultimate purpose in life. You just don't feel yourself mainly because of son changes in your schedule or maybe a habit. You have. You just sum to get things back the way they were. But I am here trying to offer myself a new perspective. Yes I have been feeling a bit like this lately.
And I am gonna let you know how I am going to approach it before I do.
I am gonna make a decision to accept the changes that are happening in my life, and decide to act on those changes in a way that will cause me to get closer to where I want to go.
Why? Why not just slip back into the old routine. With no surprises. Well cause I don't want to fool myself.
You never go back to a punt in your life. I learned that in a brighter sun. Yes yes a Caribbean book set in Trinidad. I was just 16 when I hear this and it always pops up every now and again to remind me not to fool myself.

The other thing is that to have somethine he has never had a man must do something he has never done.

As so I want to embrace change and the future, so that I can have new experiences and do things I never did.

Corey Graham
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All the world's a stage and the men and women merely player... Wrote the most celebrated pen of them all. That was the pen of William Shaksphere.

I can remember this excerpt being significant when I wrote one of my first deep writings of significance. Captured in that poem were words bounded on a page but with a meanin not confined to a single time or space.
I wrote in short that its the time between the curtians fall and rise that truly will make you great. It is the time spent preparing your mind and body for your role in the play of life. For the dimlight is the time for a soldier to remove his armour to have it repaired. Even have it made better for what he has learnt in the last battle.
Dimlight is a time to seek a greater understanding and command over your role. To master your role.
For it is a time for the rally car drivers to dismantle their engines and seek to repair them.
In the dimlight its a time to gather fragments of ideas scattered along the shore. Those ideas that come forth from fustrations and disappointments of the last performance.
What is dimlight?
Was there ever a time when you had to lie low, when you had to "sacrifice" the luxuries? What a beautiful light the dimlight as you can cast a new perspective and create new realities.

In a moment the lights come on planned or unplanned the flick of a switch is your que a call to action to execute the plan or improvise.
Yes, to improvise for should it rain on your parade the best laid plan can come to nothing. Who you are and who you have become will be glaringly apparent. How you handle pressure of a surprise reaction from your audience. Its only your understanding that will settle your feet.
Wisdom to stick to the plan is also needed. For there is a moments in which all you will need to do is nail the plan.
For it was the man who is accredited as being the vital difference in Britian's triumpht in the second world war who said,
There comes a moment in everyone's life, a moment for which that person was born. That special opportunity, when he seizes it, will fulfill his mission-a mission for which he is uniquely suited. In that moment will be his finest hour. Winston Churchill.

I have to close this email by saying that this time in my life they are several things where the spotlight is on me, and I have to remember to act appropriately. I can't be acting like I am in the dimlight when the spotlight is on.
Also to keep myself it top shape so that I can perform well.

Just remember no more mic checks when the spotlight is on, sing and perform your way to the place you desire. Corey Graham
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Oh my my my,

I am coming to the simple realisation that I allow myself to think more of the problem, than a solution. I sit and think why something can't be done because it requires me to go out my comfort zone. And simply put I am scared of doing it.
Also when we are upset about a situation or circumstance that we are in out of bthe blue we seem to experience technical difficulties with every piece of equiptment we use, and there is always some wonderful excuse why a work around can't work.
We simple focus on the problem and get all emotional and upset. Then we place barriers between us and successs.
Tell me what barriers did u place on ur way in the last hmm 30 mins-What problem and barriers have you been thinking about ?

Is that a problem
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Wow, that's so easy to say, wow.

We all know our biggest fears come from expecting something bad, making the wrong turn and not finding your destination.

Hope u understanding what I mean!

Wow I have been watching and feeling good things coming my way over the past few days, and I find myself instead of feeling grateful, I seem to worry more about the next day.
Before I just expect goodness or that I will make good with the way things turn out, I find myself in this state of fear.
Yeah, this is a busy time in my life now and certainly the question of priorities are hitting me every day.
What do I do next, to get to where I want?
Wake up one day and tonnes more stuff that needs to be done pops up.

I know I need to flick the switch one, which is just going to bring a calm around me and bring all those tools I need to get the job done well to me. Already the things I need just seem to be falling in place. However I am not proactive enough as yet. I am getting there more but I really need to push myself up to the next level once again.

I have to power to be who I want to be, and I also have to power to stop myself for becoming who I want to become. Corey Graham
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I can quite put my hand one it, I don't know, its just a general feelin..
The last few weeks I have really had to take it to the next level, it was a case of I was faced with challenges and changes in my life is I have had to adjust to.
A host of new experiences came to me and made me realise for all the growing I have done, I allowed myself to kind of "settle" with who I was. I accepted I was not a best planner in the world. Lots of vision but not the best planner. My new found self confidence came under attack too. It was life saying so you are confident, well let's see how u deal with this... And blam, like in a movie where the CIA dung up some dark reality that you never really dealt with and put it on the table.
And the asked "Corey what are you going to do?"
So deep and probing this question was, that I was deeply humbled and knocked down for a bit.
I don't know how it happened,
But I remembered my good friend's dad, telling me as if it where yesterday,
"Corey, the true measure of a man is how many time he gets up."
I remembered that, and
I not sure what changed but its as if my general attitude and approach to life now was enough for me to find the strength to grow and to be better, even better than I have ever been. It the decision to be better that started it, but after that it was not just one thing thet got better, everything seemed to improve. Things started to "fall in place". The world became a more beautiful place and I felt good.
Its as if what I need comes to me. And I have conquered another step in the journey. A truly personal victory of my old fears and patterns.

I am not in a fixed state, for I am a man, a living man. I am experiencing new things, of all natures. The only fixed reality I now assume is change, for I am a man. I can choose how I change. I am not who I am, for my the time you have finished reading this I have already changed.
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Ah yes,

I think this sets up a good way for us to go about our days. Just awareness that there is some price to pay for knowledge or wisdom or mastering a skill.
Well we all know about going to school and paying for tuition, hmm paying for a book. How about learning to be more creative ?
How about learning to believe in yourself and your capabilities?
What is the price there?
Is it over coming the fear of looking stupid to bring a new idea you have forward?
What about forgiving and forgetting? What if the price was to just let go of all the hate u feeling inside?
It might be even simpler - just being nice to those who cause you pain?

Think about what the price and and be willing to pay it.
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This blog should be one in which my humility should show,

I am sorry to those of you who I transferred my fears and worries in life to. To those of you whose enthusiam might have been shot because of this,

Because I still to this day have not been able to truly rid myself of fears I allowed to develop due to my experiences.

It is for this I am sorry. My judging your situation based on my own fears and shortcomings, unable to see your talents and your greatness due to my own bubble of lack.
Ashamed I am at myself for not being able to spur on the hopes and dreams in ur life.

No sadder proof can a man give of his own littleness than disbelief in great men.

After now ridding myself of some fears and being able to realise what an injustice I might have done to those of you around me, it spurs me on to be a servant to you, and secure your greatness, by taking care of my fears, so that they are not transferred to you.
I will aide you along.

Please accept my apology for I am firm in my resolve that brighter days are coming.
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So yeah,



There has been a change in my life, a shift as it were,

Ah change in perception and focus,

Oh oh, I got it now

I am starting to paying more attention to the quality of life.

A shift from being the work-a-holic Corey Graham, in the fun loving, inspiring, caring person I can be!

Wow, that is the first time I have said that about myself.



Yeah, there are something I have decided not to speak about regarding this blog. As I want to not pollute some areas of my life with the forces which will seek to attack those things I have decided not to speak about.



Getting on with it

I have been realising more and more how much effort it take to take responsibilty and grow to the next level.

There is level of understanding we need to reach in order master this process. I am still myself many year away from mastery of growth out of comfort zone, and to just release oneself knowing that you can always find back yourself.



Yes, I'm a soca lover and I love to use the saying that is used in the ever popular Jumbie sang by Machel Montano and written by Kernal Roberts, which is -



"Outta Body , back to yaself"

In standard english, out of body, back to yourself."



So I like to make the analogy when I am feeling like I am out my comfort zone and being "Outta Body" and when I have learned my lesson and moving on again, I'm "back to Maself"



I'm sure all of us can imagine those outta body experiences, here is a simple one.

You got to speak in front of a crowd of people, u standing infront of them, definately feeling "Outta Body"and when u have said ur piece and sit back down, u are most certainly "back to yaself"



Its been for me a powerful analogy which has been able to give me, the grow more, and understand life in new dimensions. To view it from several perspectives and yes, yes Machel fans, to view it in an HD way, far from fussy.



So anytime you



Outta Body ........

Back to yaself.....



Don't drift from who you are....



(Inspired by Stefan, Jenna, Richard, Kyle)

Corey Graham

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Have u ever gone shopping and didn't take your wallet with you? Or your budget just couldn't afford that new shirt/top today?

The sales clerk comes up to you with a pleasant smile as asks "can I help you?"
And you nonchalantly say, "Oh no just looking"

We have all gone through that, sometimes we do it for such a long time that its becomes a habit.
Sometimes in life when it comes to our dreams and plans we find ourselves telling people, I'm waiting till the right time to launch our big product.
We are waiting till the right time to capitalise on the market.
For the price to drop on the item of our desire,
We are waiting till the next update.
We are waiting till it feels right.

All of these can be understandable almost everything we do has a process.
We have take some steps to go where we want to go.
There is a time when you are in a phase where you are seeing the potential, when we are all in the phase, where everyone agrees and says "you have great potential"
And sometimes this side tracks us, we get into a habit of gathering more potential. And never being able to score.
We have all seen the sports player that worked on every area of his game and just can't score the goal or take it to the next level.
Its as if they are satisfied to just be a threat, to have potential score after potential score.

Are u stuck in the habit of potential,
Of just taking to step towards potentially getting to the goal not actually getting the goal?

Well you do know why it becomes so hard for us? Right?
Well, simple put "change"
Success causes the very behaviour that caused it to become extinct.
With success its a new levels of existance come, and changes come.

The question is are you ready to accept the change that comes with the success of reaching goals that you set?

Now ask yourself are u really ready?
What things are you holding on to?

I am ready, I had to really dig deep today to find out if I was ready for a dream which became to materialise in front of me in a significant way.

I am ready, are you ready?

Well, I'm already off to the next stop on D'Journey.
Corey Graham
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