This blog should be one in which my humility should show,

I am sorry to those of you who I transferred my fears and worries in life to. To those of you whose enthusiam might have been shot because of this,

Because I still to this day have not been able to truly rid myself of fears I allowed to develop due to my experiences.

It is for this I am sorry. My judging your situation based on my own fears and shortcomings, unable to see your talents and your greatness due to my own bubble of lack.
Ashamed I am at myself for not being able to spur on the hopes and dreams in ur life.

No sadder proof can a man give of his own littleness than disbelief in great men.

After now ridding myself of some fears and being able to realise what an injustice I might have done to those of you around me, it spurs me on to be a servant to you, and secure your greatness, by taking care of my fears, so that they are not transferred to you.
I will aide you along.

Please accept my apology for I am firm in my resolve that brighter days are coming.
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So yeah,



There has been a change in my life, a shift as it were,

Ah change in perception and focus,

Oh oh, I got it now

I am starting to paying more attention to the quality of life.

A shift from being the work-a-holic Corey Graham, in the fun loving, inspiring, caring person I can be!

Wow, that is the first time I have said that about myself.



Yeah, there are something I have decided not to speak about regarding this blog. As I want to not pollute some areas of my life with the forces which will seek to attack those things I have decided not to speak about.



Getting on with it

I have been realising more and more how much effort it take to take responsibilty and grow to the next level.

There is level of understanding we need to reach in order master this process. I am still myself many year away from mastery of growth out of comfort zone, and to just release oneself knowing that you can always find back yourself.



Yes, I'm a soca lover and I love to use the saying that is used in the ever popular Jumbie sang by Machel Montano and written by Kernal Roberts, which is -



"Outta Body , back to yaself"

In standard english, out of body, back to yourself."



So I like to make the analogy when I am feeling like I am out my comfort zone and being "Outta Body" and when I have learned my lesson and moving on again, I'm "back to Maself"



I'm sure all of us can imagine those outta body experiences, here is a simple one.

You got to speak in front of a crowd of people, u standing infront of them, definately feeling "Outta Body"and when u have said ur piece and sit back down, u are most certainly "back to yaself"



Its been for me a powerful analogy which has been able to give me, the grow more, and understand life in new dimensions. To view it from several perspectives and yes, yes Machel fans, to view it in an HD way, far from fussy.



So anytime you



Outta Body ........

Back to yaself.....



Don't drift from who you are....



(Inspired by Stefan, Jenna, Richard, Kyle)

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Have u ever gone shopping and didn't take your wallet with you? Or your budget just couldn't afford that new shirt/top today?

The sales clerk comes up to you with a pleasant smile as asks "can I help you?"
And you nonchalantly say, "Oh no just looking"

We have all gone through that, sometimes we do it for such a long time that its becomes a habit.
Sometimes in life when it comes to our dreams and plans we find ourselves telling people, I'm waiting till the right time to launch our big product.
We are waiting till the right time to capitalise on the market.
For the price to drop on the item of our desire,
We are waiting till the next update.
We are waiting till it feels right.

All of these can be understandable almost everything we do has a process.
We have take some steps to go where we want to go.
There is a time when you are in a phase where you are seeing the potential, when we are all in the phase, where everyone agrees and says "you have great potential"
And sometimes this side tracks us, we get into a habit of gathering more potential. And never being able to score.
We have all seen the sports player that worked on every area of his game and just can't score the goal or take it to the next level.
Its as if they are satisfied to just be a threat, to have potential score after potential score.

Are u stuck in the habit of potential,
Of just taking to step towards potentially getting to the goal not actually getting the goal?

Well you do know why it becomes so hard for us? Right?
Well, simple put "change"
Success causes the very behaviour that caused it to become extinct.
With success its a new levels of existance come, and changes come.

The question is are you ready to accept the change that comes with the success of reaching goals that you set?

Now ask yourself are u really ready?
What things are you holding on to?

I am ready, I had to really dig deep today to find out if I was ready for a dream which became to materialise in front of me in a significant way.

I am ready, are you ready?

Well, I'm already off to the next stop on D'Journey.
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Well there is one area of life that I have not touched yet that has not featured in my blog.
Over the past months its been taking up a lot of my thinking time. And I have had different experiences but I have always been unsure if I should put them out there online, for many reasons. Mainly because it might be taken out of context and used in a way that might harm those close to me.
Having had one experience where that I happened I have made sure that within reason I prevent the possibility of anything like that happening again.

I have made a resolve though to speak about my thoughts and ideas in this area because it would help you out there taking the time to read this blog, so understanding. I will no say that anything I discuss here is a truth, however I will state that idea I present at very much based on some very deep thinking of myself and others. And also much pain on my part so that I am able to experience certain things.
This will be an on going topic now in my blog, so let's get to it.
D'Journey continues

Well first of all let me say that society and the media gives a lot of shape to the ideas we have about relationships.
In many cases the only real long-term relationship that we know about is that of your parents or guardians. Absent or present we notice those things that are happening. A marriage or a divorce is as much of an event as a "no show". So our interaction with them changes/influences or thinking.

Now, since thise is only limited in scope because it the relationships between just a few persons, the next place we get a lot of influence from is the media, why?

Well love songs, news, movies, almost everything wants to tell us a love story, our interaction with it changes us.

As we grow older our friends and those who lean on us, in the rough patchs also influences the way we think.

The best part is that we can choose how to think.

Well what is my 2 big discoveries so far in life?
Well here u go....
1. There is always someone that you are emotional attached to.
Ok let me put it in perspective. If I had to invite you to dinner tommorrow, and tell you bring a date. There is someone there somewhere whether u want to admit it or not, that you would like to take out. The obvious on is the wife, girlfriend, boyfriend, husband ... Etc etc. But.....
Sometimes it might be really impossible, like a celebrity or more realisitically someone u really like and they really like you, but circumstances prevent you from being together, or even there is something preventing you or that person from making a committment to each other.
Think about it, in movies the villian always finds that person that their target is attached to.
I spent a lot of time in entertainment, and I can tell you that as promiscious as the celebs and 'real life" players are, there is one person who takes the cake.
I will also tell you, I have not met a single guy who is a "player" who did not have a really bad experience, the first gf etc. It's pretty amasing but that's it. I am sure the psychogists can find other instances, but I can say that of the ones I have ever known well enough to talk to them or overhear them talking about their philosophy, its always been bad relationship.
Hmmm women now, for them love at home was the defining different between promicious or not. And again, it is many, many experiences.

Please, please no one take this personally but its no one experience realise that this is all my life, I mean alll!

Well this took me to my next philosophy.

Love is one thing, relationships is totally different.
Love and relationships need to be defined
As separate things. Ideally you want to have love in a relationship , well if you want to be happy...
But they are a lot of other things that make a relationship.
I remember reading an article on the top 10 things that u should not married. This article was written by a rabbi, he was speaking to the qualites that he had found to cause divorce in his years and years of experience. And the hundreds of couples he has seen.
So time afterwards when I began accept the words of this man, it gave birth to the need for this separation. There is love, and then there is relationships.
It helps understanding when there is love but there can be no relationship. And also understanding someone else's actions when in relationships. I'll expand of this in another post at a later date, but I am sure that this concept for many of you will put many things in perspective.

But there is one quality that really stood out that I would want to mention. The Rabbi said Don't marry potential, don't marry someone for the good u can see them having one day. Marry them for what they are doing today. Because if you don't, as worth as your intentions are, to take care of them, protect them from themselves, whatever the case maybe, you are really marrying the person they can be and not the person they actually are.
I would say or my personal addition to that for when the time comes, is to marry someone that can go on D'Journey
With you.

There is another one that came from a recent realisation, thanks to Napolean Hill
Fear of lost love - its that simple, it makes a lot of us desperate, in fact it made me desperate in my past.
Some symptons of it are things like
Jealousy, insomnia, nervousness, lack of perisistence, weakness of will, lack of self-control and bad temper
This one, I am still learning maybe you can get it before me!!!!!

Well, hope that its been a little more than just reading for you! Have fun with life!

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For a long time I realised because of the way I approached life and in part to how I was raised, a lot of time I would find myself envisioning paths to my dreams which were somewhat under the table. No I am not saying illegal, but I have been constantly afraid to state clearly who I was and be proud to walk through the front door and get on with my dreams.
I'd been afraid to make use of some of my better talents out of fear that they were not good in the eyes of society.

A lot of time I spent speaking softly about matters concerning me, because I wanted to did not want to be judge.
I wanted to be "cool" and not just with peers, but family, friends, aquaitances and everyone.

You know?
Do really?

When you sell yourself something an inferior reality cause you don't want to get caught living the life that society might not look favourably on?

You know what I mean?
U understand me?

I mean hiding your true loves out of fear of being judged but society.

I need you to understand me! Please, u get it now?
You feeling how much I want u to understand? Before I go on?
U feel the passion?
Please understand?

Oh but wait?

Look at that!

Can you imagine that?

Whose reality am I living in?
Its it mine? Or hmmm am I pushing for space in your reality?

Ah such irony?

Whose reality do you live in?
Whose limitations do you decide to accept?
Yours? Or someone elses?

Ah, there you go!

I am now begining to discover and correct a lot of this stuff that would often make my path harder to see, where should I go?
And taking sometime to understand me!
Ah as a friend of mine would say, to become self aware. Its the only way to get to the next level! You have to be aware of you. You have to be aware of what will take you to the next level!
And more than ever I am beginning to realise how we can be living by a principle falsy.
What I mean is we believe that we are living a principle, to the letter. But when we check, we are just living the priniciple after we have swept all the dust unde rthe market.
And we don't feel uncomfortable, because the dust has been under the mat so long that, we don't remember that there is something between us and the solid ground. We take a mat as the solid ground.

So I am realising several mats I have placed on the ground to protect myself and removing them.
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I am sure that many of you have been wondering why there haven't been many pictures in this blog, as many of you have a first hand experience with my passion and focus on photography.
Well here you go now with a few of my shots. And not just that here is the soft launch of www.drenalinstudio.com/dstudio.
There are alot of things still be done and it will be a process of evolution. This site is much like a gallery for me to showcase and develop the talents that i have, its going to be my hobbie that i share with the world. Keeping it relatively simple.
I hope that you can enjoy some of these shots as much as i do. After all i need to share my talents with the world.

This is a question which has been posed to me.
What inspired you to write this blog?

Well hmm, I will have to say that I am inspired mainly to share my ideas and opinions for the purpose of making them better ideas and opinions.
I believe one of my better traits all through my life was my willingness to see others improve.
I went through the phase of feeling very bad about myself, because someone was "brighter than me" someone was "faster than me", because someone came up with the big idea and I didn't. Because 1 person had to be on top and in my mind and those rooting for me, I had to be that person.
Sooo interesting this is many of us spend or teenage years, in a system that teaches one person is better than the next.
Yip, this makes it hard for us to want to share ideas because someone else will steal it. Because we might be wrong. It makes it hard to have several persons comment on an idea or project you have been doing.
But these days I see things a little clearer and I'm glad for my ideas to be out there for people to be thinking about them and come back to me and give me a new perspective. That makes me feel good. This allows each person to use their particular gift or asset to make things better.
And it brings with it, new ideas and new realities.
This blog is a way from me to bring my ideas and my creativity out there for persons to interact my ideas and me.
So my inspiration is to get my ideas out there.
The power of an idea.
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This blog is having such a significant impact on my life, its been able to get me prepared and in a zone to receive happiness in life, I have been able to listen and watch people as they grow to the next level.
I have been able to increase my self esteem and self confidence.
I have been having much more interesting and powerful conversations with those around me.
These things have been gathering up to take me and this blog to the next level.
I am now at a point where my posts are going to change their dynamic.
My interaction with this blog is going to change in a very profound way.
When I started to post I began to become free, blogging became and outlet for many of my philosophies, it was my domain to become free.
It was a way to channel my energy and ideas into a resource that would grow over time.
However now, my feeling and approach to this blog, is changing, where I think constantly of the things that I want express in this arena and the kind of impact that I can have.
Its been a dream of mine to be a leader, nooo nooo, not a leader who just wants to control things or be the big boy. I want to be a REAL leader, who can take people on the kind of journey that will make them into powerful and strong individuals in their own right.
Oh the power of a dream!

Let me leave you with the words of Margrit Harris I read yesterday which quite well captured my last major realisation about human interactions -
Dreaming together and working towards making those dreams reality is a tremendous safeguard against relationship discord. Why? Because it keeps you focused and your energy directed towards mutual interests instead of finding yourselves in separate camps warring against each other.

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A few years ago I was sitting at a large rally of the Salvation Army church and I heard a message preached. It was a simple message that seemed that day to have more relavance at that time than another time. It was the first time I truly listened to what was being said in the message.
It was to stand for something, if not you stand for nothing and u will be pushed around.
Oh how powerful is this message and I have realised it been taking its influenvce over the last few weeks.
My life today I very different from what existed about 2 months ago, I find myself at some points on the verge of feeling flustered, by the unknown behind the next door.
But I have to remind myself that once I stand for something and stand strong its ok,
It doesn't matter what comes thru that door, its going to be ok, because I stand for something.
I know you will ask what is this something I stand for?
Well I stand for a way of life. A way I want to be remembered when I leave, the kind of man I want to become.
Yeah that's all written down somewhere, but its at times like these when life is looking fuzzy that I refer to these writings. I will one day refer to these writings daily, but for now, I use these writings on the kind of man I want to become, propel me forward. Every hiker checks his compass before continuing.
There was a time when I was really into hiking, I mean REALLY into hiking. This was with the Duke of Edinburgh award scheme and you know what?
The compass is what I always used to want to have. This I because my group was lost for 2 hours on saturday morn, in the "wilds" of barbados and it was not a nice feeling.
From that day I became a much better map reader and compass "operator" lol.
But really when the going got rough all we were left with was the compass, with the bearing set from the last checkpoint.
When trails disappeared this arrow in a bubble was or all in all.
When we go fuzzy directions from locals it was or direction.
So we have to keep our bearing set on our dreams and goals. Stand for them when people give us fuzzy directions, when the path disappears. Stand for something! Stand Strong let's reach for a greater existance.
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Life is really an interesting thing.
It makes you wonder. It makes you decide how to transform and transpose the energy that is reaching you constantly.
Never think it will get easier and you will have it all figured out. Never hit the cruise control button. When I say never I mean never.
Always be ready, always remain ready for those challenges which will come to you.
I would always remember as a rather 'tender" age I set my mind to find out what was the big thing in life,

What is life in its most basic form when u strip way everythingm
And I came up with the following
- The future is always coming and its a constant
- Change will come, it willn change will come.

Yeah that was pretty simple wasn't it! That all there really is, the future is always comingn and change wiill come.
And I have not yet attained distinguished greatness because I lost sight of these truths. But I must say that putting them out ahead in life gives u focus that is crystal clear.
If I could buy a lens, that would be able to capture this reality I would immediately become a prophet.
I'd like to tell you ....to remind you that there are a lot of other things involved but....that is the starting point.

I will always remember a thought I read in a John C Maxwell newsletter which said that, if can laugh at urself and have fun in ur job u will be come irresplaceable. And if u always keep things ready for the next person to take over, you will be truly irreplaceable.
But today I realise that more than ever, I can look at my past 24 hours and say that I can laugh at myself. Its amasing. I have been able to move beyond my thinking and predujices of yesterday. There was no rocket since, just beers with a good friend to put my mind in a new zone and to see new thing. This friend of mine is really creating something and finding himself in life, the ultimate creation is one its way. And he is becoming who he needs to become. I am glad for his mind truthfulness with me.
I will remember some years ago he although my good friend and someone who I felt was great, was written off of a committee, mainly because he didn't seem to know what was his big goal in life. Standard dropping, but now he is turning into the great man I expect him to become.
I can feel it, u will know his name tommorrow, in the future.

Of late my usually reasonably clear path has been a bit clouded by my constant encouraging and uplifting of others. Its something I need to master, I need to undertand others and still have myy stuff together. Some of us get so busy with the dreams of others that we fail to remember the original dream.....our personal and most unique dream. So many things can help us lose sight of our goals.
So from what I have experienced and seen, so far the need to be loved, and accepted by society allows us to let in the wrong people into our team, or family and our space that do not bring any value to the table.

Search for the right people in ur live, keep those who will help u get what u want..

The furue is constant
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Its interesting sometimes the way things occur in life. This blog was partly a spur of the moment decision to help me with my writing skills and my openness to the world.
Little did I know that it will change my life around in such a short space of time. My self image has growth. My thoughts have seemed to be more expressible. I have been able to help people and listen much better than I ever could in my life. Mainly because it always seemed like I had sooo much on my plate myself to deal with.
Its really allowed me to communicate this those around me.
I love myself because I am now able to help others. I am also growing and learning.
I have begun to realise more what things are important to me, my greatest assets were. My joy for creating and developing systems is coming forth more than ever. Also I am starting to really enjoy my creativity imagination, and understand how it must be epressed if it is ever to grow and go to the next level. The most creativy idea is worthless, if you can communicate it. This is a hard truth I had to accept I know because I had to face this reality when I started Drenalin.Productions. You can't lead a team of individuals, if you are unable to communicate your ideas in a way for them to understand. If people don't understand ya how can you inspire or motive ?

Also taking time out the day to build relationships with persons around you helps you build up yourself too and your character.
"As iron sharpheth iron so a man sharpens himself in the countenance of a friend."

I have seen that by spending time to develop strong and healthy relationships, we can make the right changes occur around us conscious and unconsciously.
Being in another's space takes a lot of deep thought and understanding that would allow you to truly benefit from the interaction.

Who are you and where are you going ? Is the question that will simplify things in your life.

Just remember don't lie to yourself about how you are feeling! Let ur emotions take their true form. Don't make them into something else, someone wants.

Use the energy from the emotions wisely, and you will see the difference that this can make in life.

Its sooo powerful.

Daily, I allow myself time to just focus on doing the thing that I want to do.
I allow myself to build up the skills I want.
More and more I am embarassing fears by taking it to the next level, growing in stature. And you know I am expecting more and more success. I expect that if I don't get it tommorrow, that I will get it the day after that!
Corey Graham
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